When you love a person like this, does it reflect badly on you? Does it make me an idiot that I wasn't fully aware of this, or is it that this has just been revealed in a big way, when before there were only small glimpses? Am I a fool for feeling sorrowful around this?
The issue which brought the not-talking-to-me situation out is not going to change, I am not going back on what I said. I told my truth; someone heard something that may have been that truth, may have been a deeper truth, or may have been something completely made up on his part, but we'll never know, since all conversation ceased the minute it was out of my mouth.
Perhaps this was the break point that was just waiting to happen. Maybe this was the statement that brought all the other little things into focus for him - since I was meticulously avoiding him having any contact with anyone in my public sphere. No dinners with friends, no movies, nothing social. For reasons I may have explained here earlier - that he tends to lecture rather than converse, and take over any conversation, and be petulant when not discussing his preferred topic. And the fact that none of my friends can really tolerate him, and don't think he's enough for me. Which is true. But doesn't stop me from feeling the point of connection, which is, and has been, real. At least to me.
Thank you, universe, for allowing this to happen, and for freeing me from a detrimental situation, and freeing me for a much better one.
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